Well i took 6 tramadol at about 9.30pm last night and they didnt kick in by midnight. My puppy had decided she wanted to play at midnight so i decided id take her a walk along the beach. I was talking to a friend online at the point and he asked if he could come too. I agreed!
We spoke and walked along the beach a few times. Before i knew it an hour and a half had passed and we were still talking comfortably. This was only the 2nd time i had met this guy and he was really nice. There was a natural kind of spark between us as we exchanged a kiss and a few cheeky things in the back of his car. Whats the problem????? hes 15 years older than me!!! he really doesnt look it but yep hes 38. Nearly in his 40′s. and im not even mid 20s yet. If its so comfortable is it so wrong? I dont think i could ever have a relationship with this guy but mibbe a bit more than friends could be a good confidence boost and make me feel a bit better about myself.
Anyway back to the point. Iv had an hour and a halfs sleep through the tramadol and now its 5.11am and i am wide awake! Its good i dont have anything planned during the day just now because im struggling with a routine. I know its probably the worst thing but i really am trying to get a routine. I didnt nap at all yesterday and still not sleeping tonight. I think im gonna need to get the amitriptyline!!!
